Mmm, Scrabble

I had another bipolar day today. It started out alright, and I watched "Rebel Without a Cause," which almost made me cry because it's so good, and then I went to the ceramics studio to glaze. Unfortunately I totally have glazer's block- all my stuff turns out looking like shit, so I'm less than excited about glazing. I was, therefore, all down, etc, and then was talking to Ryan, who was like "Ellie, let's sit down and figure your life out." So Ryan asked me lots of questions about why I was feeling cranky and upset, and I answered to an extent (I couldn't mention to him that the simple fact that we were talking was making me depressed, because I used to like him- plus he started throwing with his shirt off, which just made it super awkward for me). Anyway, thinking about why I was upset made me more upset, so when I left for softball practice I didn't even make it to my car before I broke down and cried excessively... No fun. But then I was sitting in my car and got an idea for glazing a pot, so I went back in and did it.

Then I went to the opposite end of the spectrum, and spent a joyous five hours (!) at The Muse playing Scrabble and just hanging out with Adrienne (for the first game), Lindsey, Alison and Lady Hayden. That was much more pleasant. I even won a game (with 177 points), and used the word xebec!!! I've been waiting to use that for years. I got some cuddle time in with Lindsey, which was much needed by me.

Seriously, I have not been meeting my cuddling/hug quota.

But yeah... so I'm totally bipolar.