Chirrup!

I'm feeling like a cricket! Well, not really.

Speaking of having wings, though, for the last week or so I've been getting all this pent up emotional energy, and I just don't know what to do with it. I feel like a giant pair of wings is about to explode out of my back, and I'll fly my ass out of here... but I don't really want to leave... there's just a lot of anger, frustration, and fear bubbling below the surface. It doesn't even have a specific focus- I'm really pretty happy right now overall- but I have this emotional itch. I want so much more, and I want it RIGHT NOW! Lol. It doesn't help that Tim has been lame thus far and hasn't called me back, and I think he was in lecture today but he definitely didn't say hi, much less explain why he hasn't returned my calls. It's not even like I can be justifiably mad, either! Grr. It's hard enough for me to find guys whom I feel are up to par, without them going and doing silly things like not returning my sentiments. I'm so impatient; I want everything NOW, but I can't! I have so much, and yet I feel so... restricted... rather than liberated by the fact. I'm tired of the promise of tomorrow- I'm concerned with today.

Anyway, there's my rant. In other news, I went to the exhibition of graduating ceramics and printmaking seniors tonight, and it was pretty sweet. There were some things which I took a look at and decided that I can do better, but a lot of the stuff was quite good. Plus, there was free food, and the enjoyable company of Joe (another ceramics guy) and his boyfriend, both of whom kept me exceedingly amused throughout the show. Then, just like every monday night, Lindsey and I had too much wine. (Well, technically I had two beers... and I'm not particularly feeling it... but you get the idea.) Anyway, I think I might take advantage of my tipsyness to get emotional about some global issue like the decimation of the rainforest so that I can have a good cry and hopefully expend some of that aforementioned pent up, emotional energy... but we'll see.

Alright, that's it, I'm up out! Smoke me a kipper, I'll be back for breakfast!

Chirrup!

I'm feeling like a cricket! Well, not really.

Speaking of having wings, though, for the last week or so I've been getting all this pent up emotional energy, and I just don't know what to do with it. I feel like a giant pair of wings is about to explode out of my back, and I'll fly my ass out of here... but I don't really want to leave... there's just a lot of anger, frustration, and fear bubbling below the surface. It doesn't even have a specific focus- I'm really pretty happy right now overall- but I have this emotional itch. I want so much more, and I want it RIGHT NOW! Lol. It doesn't help that Tim has been lame thus far and hasn't called me back, and I think he was in lecture today but he definitely didn't say hi, much less explain why he hasn't returned my calls. It's not even like I can be justifiably mad, either! Grr. It's hard enough for me to find guys whom I feel are up to par, without them going and doing silly things like not returning my sentiments. I'm so impatient; I want everything NOW, but I can't! I have so much, and yet I feel so... restricted... rather than liberated by the fact. I'm tired of the promise of tomorrow- I'm concerned with today.

Anyway, there's my rant. In other news, I went to the exhibition of graduating ceramics and printmaking seniors tonight, and it was pretty sweet. There were some things which I took a look at and decided that I can do better, but a lot of the stuff was quite good. Plus, there was free food, and the enjoyable company of Joe (another ceramics guy) and his boyfriend, both of whom kept me exceedingly amused throughout the show. Then, just like every monday night, Lindsey and I had too much wine. (Well, technically I had two beers... and I'm not particularly feeling it... but you get the idea.) Anyway, I think I might take advantage of my tipsyness to get emotional about some global issue like the decimation of the rainforest so that I can have a good cry and hopefully expend some of that aforementioned pent up, emotional energy... but we'll see.

Alright, that's it, I'm up out! Smoke me a kipper, I'll be back for breakfast!

GOAL!!!!!!!!!!

So, yesterday at the soccer game, we had a healthy lead, and so Elyse, realizing that I hadn't made a goal yet, hung back, forcing me sort of against my will to play up. The happy result? I scored a goal in the last 30 seconds of the soccer game! Woohoo! Of course, I insisted on dribbling the ball really close to the goal because I have bad aim and nearly lost the ball to the player who came to cover me, but by golly, it worked. Woohoo again!

Speaking of... stuff... trying to go on a date with Levi last weekend didn't go so well... there was hanging out at Casey Moore's and awkwardness, and I called him on Saturday, leaving a message that included the words "Call me", and never heard back from him... meh. At this point I'm pretty sure I'm ready to listen to the folks telling me to let it go... not that I really pursued him much to begin with...

Meanwhile, in Bio lab...

I got Tim's number. That's right. I'm damned proud.

In other news, I've been really bizarrely tripped out lately, and I'm a bit concerned. I've been having really weird dreams lately that have totally been stressing me out, but also some of them have been extremely realistic, and my mental line between dreams and reality is getting blurred, which can't be a good thing.

Fading from the Radar Scope Like So Many Sunken Battleships

Hi guys! I just realized it's been, like, weeks since I've posted. At first it was because I didn't feel like I had anything to say (I don't post when I'm happy because I don't need to get anything off my chest, and I don't like only posting when I'm upset because then you folks don't have a chance to forget just how emo I can be). Then for a while it was because I was too busy with school and you guys... and now I'm still sick and busy, and realized I don't have time to talk to anyone or see you folks, so here's my blog.

I hope everyone had a happy Valentine's Day yesterday! Lindsey and I got trashed on wine on Monday night (seriously, we were gone. and giggly. very giggly), and I got emo (surprise, surprise). She's been trying to convince me to just ask Levi out (mainly so she doesn't have to continue listening to me talk about it, which is a perfectly valid excuse). Maybe I'll ask him out on Friday night. Maybe. Weirdness.

Anyway, the only action I got on Valentine's Day was a nice conversation with a boy in one of my classes, a kiss on one cheek from Linds, and a kiss on the other cheek from a grizzly, older but shorter, spanish speaking soccer fan who asked me to be his girlfriend.

Alright, I'm up out. I need some coffee, and then I have class. I didn't go to my Bio lecture today... or monday... and I'm not going on Friday... hmm, maybe I should rethink my "ditch bio when it's convenient" policy. Naaaahhhh.

Love you guys! We should, like, hang out. Or something. Yeah.